Hiding

I have a dilemma at hand. For the past 9 years my career choice of being a doctor before becoming a nurse has been a source of "stress" for me. Preparing for medical school all my life then ending up with a nursing degree when I arrived the United States was not what I have planned to do. Now that I'm in Canada, it has been simpler for me to just keep my medical knowledge and skills a secret, so I do not have to explain myself.

However, in the end my surroundings will notice that I am different. My co-worker told me I was just brilliant and she couldn't explain why. I just smile, and accept the compliment.

Well, I can't accept the compliment actually because for myself, being a nurse is not enough. I am happy with my job but I know that I can do more. I can be more.

So my dilemma remains: to disclose or not to disclose myself to people? Funny how it sounds, but I shouldn't be ashamed to be a doctor...

Lord, grant me the humility to acknowledge that everything that I am, everything that I have is because of You. May I honor you in all my days, and, in my journey to become a doctor again, Tou remain to be my inspiration. Amen